Yep, I am sick.  It sucks 🙁  They always joke that the worst kind of sickness in the world is Manflu, and I always think that is stupid.  However right now I know that is me, just a little.  I don’t handle being sick that well at all, I never have.  I remember back to being in school and being so sick with the flu one year that I was hallucinating.  I thought that I had lost money in the bathroom cupboards where the sheets were stored.  I was diving through them like crazy.  I thought this was a kind of dream, turns out I was doing it for real.  That did not go down well at all.

I always seem to get sick though, every year I usually deal with tonsillitis at least once.  I can easily deal with that, I have had it so many times in my life now.  A little amoxicillan from the doctor (a type of antibiotic) and my life is all good.  However I don’t often get smacked down with a cold or flu and if I do, I can usually handle it fairly well.  This time though is a little bit different.  I don’t think I have been this sick in quite some time.  It all started last week, on Thursday.  I couldn’t swallow at all, and figured it was a case of tonsillitis coming on.  Since I was working from home I took an hour or so off to head off to the doctors.  We changed health plans at work last year and since I have a new location as well, It meant a new doctor.  The doctor didn’t think I had tonsillitis and ran some tests but didn’t give me anything, I wasn’t happy at all, thinking that I knew better.  He said he would get back to me friday with the results.

Friday came, and it went with no call from the doctor at all.  By that stage I was getting worse and my body was going from Tonsillitis mode into full blown viral infection.  I have no idea what I have but it kicked in badly.  I had to work Saturday as well and the sickness was partially being put at bay with some cold & flu drugs.  But it was like paddling upstream against a waterfall.  It was inevitable that today would happen.  Yesterday I barely kept it together but by the end of the day, I was struggling big time.  I had barely slept since Friday and the night time drugs were just not working at all.  I was battling upstream and loosing.  This morning I let the stream win and over the falls I went.

The doctor called through this morning with my results.  Shock Horror i don’t have tonsillitis but I am coming in anyway to get rechecked out.   Not only was I not sleeping my right eye was being gross (no descriptions trust me) and the whole thing was just disgusting, I was a mess.  Heidi stayed with me for the morning looking after me and taking care of me (which I didn’t expect).  I wanted to do everything I could to not make her sick and get what I have, whatever it is.  The doctor checked me out and told me that I do have some form of Influenza (wooooo mandatory flu shots really work /sarcasm) but the weirdness is that the virus was also affecting my eye.

So he sent me home with a couple of prescriptions and plenty of orders to rest up, no gym and take it easy with the eye today since I would be putting drops in it.  I ended up back on the couch around lunch watching tv and trying not to cough.  I have to drink ginger tea (something the doctor told me on the first visit, and I actually am listening to him this time) and rest and get plenty of fluids.  I feel like I am a four year old, carting around a water bottle everywhere I move, taking an afternoon nap since i have no energy.  I have orders to stay out of the gym as well for at least 4 days, and even then I can’t push myself too hard.  That is going to be the hardest part as I haven’t had that long off the gym in almost 4 years!  Going to be a tough time I guess.

Being sick is still crappy, and I don’t know if I really ever want to deal with it.  But the main thing is you know that in this life we will always be sick.  It is more about dealing with the bad parts of it, while enjoying the things that you can out of it,  Getting time to relax, time to catch up on TV you might not get to see all the time.  Personally, I am looking forward to a treat to make me feel better, because that’s what happens when you are sick right?