Just over 3 years ago (well 3 years and 1 week) I completed the first of my challenges in my goals that would change my life. I am sure you have all read about my story to change my life. Looking back I looked very different back then, I look very different now compared to that day as well. From start to finish it was a total transformation. The thing that most people assume though is that everything in my life is all hunky dory and that it is all 100% guaranteed that I have lost all the weight and it won’t ever come back. That is far from the truth.

Each day I wake up and I struggle. I still have days when I wake up and think to myself “I don’t want to do this” right before I head off for a workout. 5 more minutes or sleep, or a day of rest is all I want some days, but i push through it and keep going. This is my life now, I could go back to the way I was but I don’t want that. I still run (well after this injury is worked out, I will be) and I still challenge myself all the time. My nutritionist once said to me that if I could keep the weight off for 3 years straight, that the chances of me keeping the weight off for the rest of my life would be 90% higher.

It’s that 10% that worries me sometimes. I still struggle with the food some days. I have to stop myself so much from eating to much crap and lately since the injury it has been even harder to stop myself from eating the stuff I shouldn’t be and saying to myself “well when I get over this injury I can just lose it all again”. But that just won’t help me much at all. Those kinds of lies are just dumb. So I have to constantly be tough on myself, work hard, give myself those slaps to the face that I need at times. Right now I wish i could run Punishment Hill to remind myself just what happens when I screw up. It was as it says my punishment for when things went not the way they should.

So to all of those who struggle with weightloss or getting fit or staying fit, don’t worry, we all do… no matter what!