At the moment I am in what I like to call a transition phase. I have a job, but it hasn’t started yet, so I am really just taking each day as it comes. The only problem is, I am someone who has not had this much time off in years without going somewhere or doing something. This may seem like a vacation, but it isn’t.

Sure it is good to be getting up at 7:30 in the morning and rolling out of bed slowly. Drinking coffee till lunch time is fun as well, but it just gets a little bit boring. If you know me really well, you know I have a tendancy to over think things. I have a habit of just thinking way to much on one thing and causing myself problems. Like Monday night, I was meant to cook dinner for Heidi when she got home from Uni, however because I didn’t know what time she was going to be home I waited. Part of me was thinking to myself “just cook now, she can reheat” and I was to busy beating that part of me up and saying “stop it, cook when she leaves so it will be hot when she gets home”. Sadly I spent almost 45 minutes doing that dance, so when I finally did hear from Heidi, she was just getting home, and I had not even started cooking. *sigh*

I don’t know how to stop myself from over thinking at times. I do have stuff to do, but there are days like yesterday where I just get bored sitting around. I want to be able to keep my brain doing things for enough that I can still tune out for some part of the day. The sad thing is I just don’t know how to do that sometimes. Days like today where I have an appointment pushed back tend to turn into a mess for me. I like to plan things, so I have a way of controlling my time, my thoughts and what I do. I am not someone who likes to sit around doing nothing. Sadly that is my life right now, and I need to get used to it. These two things just don’t like each other.

So what am I going to do for the next week? Well I know that since I have spent a total of 1 hour with my wife all week (not including sleeping in the same bed) I am looking forward to spending some time with her (which will wait for Saturday). Tomorrow I want to get out and get some spotting done and Sunday will probably be spent doing chores (cleaning, shopping). At least I know that Friday afternoon around 1pm, I am back employed and looking forward to getting my brain in gear, Even if it means 7am starts *sigh*