This is going to be an emo post so if you do not want to read it please either scroll down or come back in a few days. Emo beginning now:

Today is a very sad day in my life. Today at 0445 my Grandmother passed away. She was the last of my Grandparents and out lived her Husband (my grandfather) by over 13 years. I loved her dearly. She has been in my life for as long as I can remember and has always been kind, loving and fun. Some of my earliest memories involve my grandparents and I hope those memories will never fade. She was 97 and lived a filling life. A life that was full of joy and happiness.

I owe a lot to my grandmother. She gave me the passion for travel that I now have. Without her I would not be the person I am today. It was because of her that I travelled to disneyland when I was 13, Then to Mt Isa, Ayers Rock, Longreach, Melbourne, Kangaroo Island, Adelaide, Tasmania, Canberra and of course Sydney. I can remember as a child always going to Sydney to visit my grandparents. This probably helped feed this passion for travel. Without that passion I would not be the person I am now or be doing the job I am now, in that I owe her a lot.

I intend on travelling more in life now, I am already planning on going to the USA and to Canada something I know she would of wanted. For the rest of my life I will be happy whenever I travel as I know that is a joy in life she has given me.

I do not regret not seeing her in hospital, I feel that it would of made today a lot harder seeing her the way she was. What I do regret is not being able to show her the photos of my last trip, seeing the joy in her eyes of some of the places she has been.

I will remember her for the rest of my life. Grandma… I love you.

For all of those people out there who wish to send any emails to me to wish me well please do and I will pass your love and well wishes onto my family as well. Thank you to all those that have put up with my moodiness lately.

I will try and get back to normal as soon as possible. For those that want to know the Funeral will be on Monday the 24th of July. For more details please email me.

Thank you.

I’m sorry. I have been denying this site for a while… i’ve been working so much lately. Brother is gone thank god and life is back to normal. I have been working so much lately that i almost ran myself into the ground. I was so depressed and out of it yesterday that i snapped a couple of the girls at work and i didn’t mean to.

But life has been very stressful i’m just so glad i have a weekend off and a long weekend to boot. So far today just been doing nothing at all really. Just lazing about. Burning a heap of DVD’s at the moment which keeps me going. Not sure what i’m going to do for rest of weekend, i really dont. Me being lazy though… wont be much.

I intend on doing some things that I haven’t done in a while, weather permitting, such as going spotting at the airport, play a heap of BF2 (maybe even buy Armoured Fury). Maybe do some baking as well and just relax!

This wednesday is gonna be a big one! Its origin night and that means… BEER!. A long night of serving beer to thousands of people. But on a better note holidays are two weeks away and I can’t wait. It’s gonna be busy but it will be a fantastic time. It will be a good time to get away, try and be myself and meet new people. I will try and update as I go along but there is no guarantee. I will keep a travel journal while im away as usual, which will go online when i get back.

Well i have 14 hours of hell at the moment. My brother is in town. He is in transit from Berlin to Darwin. Stupid me gets an RDO on the same day he is here :/ I’d rather be at work at the moment.

Its been a wierd week.. only worked 3 days, Angela off to Europe on Sunday, my holiday is all booked, paid and ticketed so all ready to go, Club Croc Cruise last night so got to meet a heap of new people including a brand new girl joining our team fresh out of intake training.

Life is pretty wierd though for me. My mind is mixed between looking for someone new, finding love out their in the world or waiting. Waiting for a certain person to return. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how i feel. I am so confused.

On a more positive note my holiday is 100% organised. Tickets have arrived. I’m starting to get bits and pieces organised in the little time off i have. I have a bag ready to go, nice and new. Its an older model Black Wolf “travel duffle.” It pretty much means that its a duffle bag with wheels and its pretty awesome 😀

Also picked up today like a quick dry towel which compacts down nice and small. Something that will save me from carrying a huge massive beach towel everywhere. Also picked up a tiny travel umbrella which i havent had an umbrella in like months and this one will pack down nice and small for me to take to work and stuff and leave in my work bag which is good. Also picked up a travel document wallet. Didn’t really need it but it was $9 and it looks cool.. so why not 😀

I have to go to lunch at Sizzler today with my family 🙁 fun…………

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guess its not all bad… he did just give me a Patriots Hat. Something ive waited forever for.

Thats right folks. This is how you become a modern home based Pirate, no fancy pirate clothes necessary (although if your into that sort of thing… go right ahead).

1. Find yourself some suckers internet connection. Steal it.
2. Using his internet connection download illegal movies from your program of choice.
3. Profit?

Ok being a bit more serious. It’s very easy these days to do the whole illegal thing. I mean how hard is it to type into google and find somewhere to download things illegally. Getting movies, games, music all the more easy. Why not buy a DVD burner, go to your local blockbuster or video store of choice and burning a rented dvd. Why not go to somewhere like Bali or Thailand and come home with hundreds of illegal DVD’s which have all been done with cameras in someones store.

Yes i own a DVD burner, yes i have a fast internet connection. Yes i have an mp3 player. These three things dont make me a pirate.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

So after months of back and forth, trying to make decisions, not sure what to do, I have finally made a decision. On the 23rd of June i jet off south to Sydney for 2 nights staying at the Vibe Hotel Goulbourn Street. While im there i have a bridgeclimb at night and then who knows what im doing the other day. Then on the 25th of June it’s off to Cairns with Contiki. 14 days of new faces, new friends and the Qld Coast, stopping at Coffs Harbour, Gold Coast, Fraser Island, Whitsundays and finishing in Cairns.

I look forward to the whole road trip as I have not done a road trip up the Qld Coast or even between Sydney and Brisbane since i was in primary school over 12 years ago!

This should be a good couple of weeks and i’m really looking forward to it. But tommorrow it’s the Wholesaler Challenge between Sunlover and Qantas. I hope it will be good, last year was so much fun.

So think good thoughts and time to kick some Qantas butt!

Well today i decided i would actually join the console revolution. I bought a PSP. Some people might start thinking im a bit of a nerd or that im wasting my money but there is reasoning. It is pretty much a portable entertainment system. Not only can i play games and listen to mp3s but i can also watch movies using an UMD (universal media disc) and also surf the web!

I mainly bought it for when im travelling i will still have access to things that will keep me amused and also watch some good movies. As for what movies are on psp so far i have Mr and Mrs Smith, but have been looking online and found that EZYdvd are selling some really great movies for $10 each. I’m going to order a couple soon including King Kong and Serenity which are both gonna be $10 each so cant wait for that… being able to watch Serenity on the way to work 😀

At the moment i only have 1 game for it (Ridge Racer) but soon i should be able to get a Nintendo 64 emulator for my psp which means i can play some old classic games like Super Mario 64, Donkey Kong Country and even Mortal Combat. But it should be good to have this for when im bored. Anyway im on early shift tommorrow.

This is an emo post… if you dont want to read the emo post just keep scrolling.

Most of those who know me know that one of my dearest friends is currently in the UK. I miss her immensly. Before she left we used to talk at least once a week. We have always had some form of seperation as before she left she lived on the Central Coast area of NSW. But now that she is a 24 hour flight away and a 10 hour time difference things are very different.

Anytime i even think of her it pains me to do so. It hurts quite a bit. Knowing that talking to her will cost me a fortune from the other side of the world but also is hard to work around. If i want to call her it has to be at really insane times :/ Its rough having to be so far apart from each other. Anytime i do talk to her i get this really strong feeling of missing her and not having her in close reach. One of my friends seems to think im in love with her… I just dont know.

I hope that she will return soon, back to Aus, back within close reach, back where i know she is safe and if im needed can be there in a flash. I dont know if she will even read this but if you do. I miss you babe, come home soon.

I was going to be posting about some spotting stuff yesterday but when i woke up… my old computer, laughingly reffered to as Fridge, was D.O.A. She wouldnt boot, no nothing, seemed like the motherboard died. So i did the best thing that any decent person would do… GUT HER! I stripped out what i could salvage (hard drives and sound card mainly) and went in search of a new pc. After 5 hours of waiting and 1 of those hours fighting with the staff at Umart over some parts, i had all the parts i needed for a new pc.

Took me another 5 or so hours to get her running (plenty of fiddling with cables and the like) and she was alive…..
I had brought her to life, she was heavy, she was good looking, she had to be named… Bessie. Like any good farmer he always has a cow named bessie. Well my big fat heavy pc is now named Bessie. Shes a lovely pc, P4 3.4 HT, 1gig DDR2 Ram, 500gig HDD in total (80 & 120 IDE and a 300 SATA2). Radeon X800-GT, 550w power supply ($170 ffs!!) plus my old Audigy 2, all in a beautiful Soprano case. She’s not finished yet. Still need to get the DVD burner fixed up, buying a Cold Cathode, Fan Controller (3 big fans in the case) and something to carry her with cause shes so heavy!!

Anyway time to go to work!!!

My god my body hurts. I just got home from SEQ’s and it was good yet tough. I was with a great team of guys who even though we didnt win every game we did pretty damn well.

My body at the moment feels like it has been beaten with a stick over and over and over…. and i stink as well so i think a shower is in order. Things are going good at the moment… been working a lot so havent been able to update.

For those tracking my shave for a cure pledge donations stand at $231. Its been going a bit slow lately but should pick up soon!!!

I’m to tired to talk more today so shall talk more tommorrow.

Ive been so lazy lately and not posting…. i dont want to be one of those people that only updates their blog like once a month if at all!!!!

Things have been pretty boring lately just work work work work and more work. I do have easter coming up tommorrow but i’m working easter saturday (yay?). I have spent a bucket load of money this week. Tuesday i had to get my car serviced so that was $260. Then i found out i was given $200 for easter and my brain has instantly gone “GET YOUR CAMERA BAG.” I’ve been drooling over this new camera bag for when im travelling. It’s a Crumpler backpack. So i went into the city yesterday and i bought it. Best bag I own. Nice and big with plenty of room but also heaps of protection for the camera. Only $290 though 😐 One thing i did notice is all of my crumpler bags bar one are pretty much the same Oatmeal and Orange Colour… maybe i just like that colour :/

It’s great to meet new people and even better when they share one of your passions. We shall see how things go but i might post about that another day when things work out a bit more…. you know who i’m talking about 😉

Work calls (sadly) so i should probably get ready…. can someone call in sick for me? Maybe tell them that my head exploded? no.. My kidneys failed.. wait to bad… My Ass exploded!… wait not serious enough….. ahh bugger it ill just go to work